You complete me

More than being a hugging pillow that keeps me sleep cozily and serenely
More than being the wind beneath my wings that keeps me soaring heights
More than being the inspiration in these trying hard times...
You complete me

More than being a music to my silent world that lifts up my mood...
More than being a light that gives my dark space lit up
More than being an entertainment to my boredom and routine day to day work that keeps a smile on my heart...
You complete me

Live and Alive with Boyz II Men

Loving every beat, soul, and words inked in my mood.  Well known for their infallible hit acapella R&B songs that accompanies a heart to break the defeaning silence.  Thrilled to hear them again live - my Boyz II Men..

Going back in time when Water runs dry keeps on playing on endlessly.  When Four Seasons of Loneliness has been a long playing record on my itunes.  When in doubt if I can weather the storm, Can you stand the rain would be the right ballad.  When I just want to lay still, a perfect In the Still of the night would play along.  When you want to get up and move, I seem to hear So Amazing.  When On Bended Knees breaks and pinches my heart.  I could go on and on but for tonight, I'll enjoy this moment with my Boyz II Men :)

At the end of the journey....where is home?

I still want to walk down the romantic streets of Paris while you hold my hand and just enjoy the serene and cold air we breathe....











Although sinners at the eyes of man, let us kneel before his Holiness and take awe at the majestic St. Petersburg at the Vatican...








I dream of spending time in Lauterbrunnen so I can be trapped in time with you as we get surrounded by the untouched springs, fountains, valleys, and waterfalls everywhere...

Take a dip in Blue Lagoon's sublime waters of the Blue Lagoon. One Icelandic experience that is quintessentially breathtaking...










While time is of the essence, I just want to savor and feel again the beauty of everything that once was my world as we step back in time in Barcelona...








The grandiose castles of Prague gives me hope in reminding you to treat me not a Princess  ...Woe my heart again as you did before...









Don't let Sweden's midnight sun keep you away from me but instead feel the warmth of love that has always been shining between us...

Amidst all this bucket list, I'd like you to help me find my way back home..yours and mine together at last...

 

Free falling

Took little steps towards the edge of the platform.  Decided to look straight and feel the air breeze through my face.  I can hear my heart beat a little faster and stronger.  While they give instructions and make sure my harness is secure, my mind ran blankly.  I just don't know what to think.  I just know that there is something different, something exciting, something great is about to happen. 

The man beside me asked me if I was ready to take the jump.  I just nodded and smile and on the count of three, that something was about to start.  Years after taking that plunge made me realize that I took it with something similar to my journey. 

Falling 233m from the World's highest Bungee site - AJ Hackett's Macau tower bungy experience is one astonishing and heaven-like experience.  Looking back, it mirrors my own take in the leap of faith.  I knew that I had to do it or I may never get the chance to come back and do it again.  People around me made sure that I had my straps secure to keep me safe when I jump off the edge.  I was looking forward to the pure bliss that I was feeling intensely.  At the back of my mind, I knew that in between those fall and joy, there is the consequence...there is change. 

When I started to lean forward and my feet left of the edge, it was like everything was in slow motion and yet so fast.  The wind touching my face.  My heart was left somewhere up or fell faster below.  I can see a blue clear sky and a vast serene water with a boat docking in just seemed like a few feet away.  In just 20 seconds, I was already hanging close to the trampoline. 

Today, I feel the same, seems like everything happened so fast that I can't undo it.  I was for a moment in the clouds but everything just went down so fast that I have no control of.  Jumping and falling towards my goal didn't give me a glimpse of those clear blue sky that I long for nor the serenity of the water waving through softly on the ground.

The bungee fall let me experience at least something better because the jump I took tied me hanging still.  The fall was not flat facing down but it turned my world upside down.  Seemed like both feet are tied stopping me from touching the ground and moving forward.

I know at some point I can't always be kept hanging with or without you however it hurts.  I need to move on and be free.  I am still giving it some time but not for long.  I will have to cut that rope when the clock strikes 12 at the start of those fireworks.  Let the countdown begin because I want to be free falling.

Dance with me

There is no present or future...only the past that is happening again and again now.  He whispered "dance with me".  I gave my hand and swayed to the tune.  Oh what a tangled web we weaved.  Then I said "dance with me", he replied "why?".  I said "Dance with me before I slip out of your memory".

Music to my ears

They say...When you are in pain, you understand the lyrics.  When you are happy, you enjoy the music.  I say, touche.  I have all memorized by heart what Little Jackie and Lifehouse meant.  Bon Jovi's soulful rendition of you want to make a memory brings me even closer to my innermost cravings.

But last night and for the rest of the nights, let me enjoy the rhythm, the beat, and the melody....Need I say more?

That's the way the cookie crumbles

You lure me to your world.  Took my heart and brainwashed me.  Made me believe that tomorrow will be an ever after.  When nothing is left, you brought me back to nothing.

To you my friend, my handyman, my chef, and my friend...thanks for always being there for me.  Thanks for making me see that's the way the cookie crumbles...