In the arms of a lullabye

In the wee small hours of the morning, i stare at the ceiling...trying to sleep off the confusion. I toss and turn to find the right spot to rest my weary soul but with no luck. If only I was lying under the stars, I may have witness the conversation of the sparkling moon and glimmering stars. I may have seen so many shooting stars that compliments the serene sky.
At the crack of dawn, the screaming sun slowly makes its way behind the clouds. I psyche up my body and drag myself to the so-called busy hours of the day. And as I drove down the road, I ponder on things that lies ahead of me. To keep me awake and alert, i plug my i-pod. To keep my brain running, i puff the blues away.
I spend the longest hours of my day sitting and waiting for a buzz. I always look forward to a blinking tab because it brightens up my spirit and lessens the immense boredom of paperworks. For as long as the blinking keeps going on, I discover new things about me and it also builds up a greater height of madness.
Time ticks off and when darkness comes creeping in, I feel the surge of separation anxiety. To not know what to do ... I feel empty. Deprive of 'the moments', I long for the chance to grasp the innermost thoughts...reveal and renew the deepest darkest furtive...to sleep in the arms of a lullabye.

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I thought this time I will never get excited anymore. I thought I've seen it all, heard it all, felt it all. But I was wrong. I came from my OB-Gyne earlier today to have my soooooo delayed monthly check-up. The secretary counted and I was a month delayed visiting my OB. Anyway, I know that this visit would mean just the usual check-up plus I will have to listen to my child's heartbeat.

So I just lay down while my OB measures my tummy. She said the size of the baby was just right for my term. Then she rub some gel in my tummy and placed the device while it was locating for my baby. It took a while before I heard the heartbeat. While she was looking, I thought I'd just feel the same because I already had two kids. But when I heard the lab dab beating soooooo fast, I felt different. I felt elated. It was like I was hearing that sound for the first time. My OB said "active na active ha". I guess I just realized that every child or person is unique and that the experience with them is also unique even before they are born.

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Freewill.....caught up in the running wheel....

Freewill is one of the most important gift that GOD has ever given to mankind. It is a philosophical doctrine that gives us the freedom to choose between right or wrong, good or bad, left or right, up or down....all of it are left ultimately to ourselves. Whatever the situation is, whoever we are, we are all given the same freewill. In whatever case it is, we always are presented with options. What makes everything difficult for us are not the options itself but the process of choosing which one to take without ever having the feeling of guilt once we decided to take it.
Most of the time, we choose the things that we think and feel best serves our needs. Sometimes we opt to take the easy way for our own convenience. At times, we give in to an alternative which would set us free from the burden of selfishness that would entail sacrificing your own happiness.
We have created our own standards just like society has identified and dictated our culture and norms whereby those who deviate from such would be labeled as a 'violator', 'offender', 'criminal' or 'sinner'. The pros and cons of each and every choices that we have must be carefully weighed whenever we are in a state of dilemma.
There are moments when the answer is simply in front of us. We can find all the reasons to go on and pick the most visible, viable, and logical choice. An option that makes more sense...that outweighs all others. As such, we are relieved from the tension, confusion and stress of choosing. This scenario is effortless because it just merely let one distinguish the fact from fiction...truth from comfort...knowledge and enlightenment as oppose to ignorance and bliss.
On the other hand, a situation calls for a more in-depth analysis of the outcomes rather than scrutinizing the choices itself. These are the most challenging tasks that we have to face and live by. It is our innermost beliefs, credo or philosophies in life that are at stake ... that plays along against our deeper most desires, interests, pleasures. So which one prevails? The former makes you as the sacrificial lamb...surrendering the other side of your profound happiness. Somehow, the latter gives you sort of a short-lived sense of wholeness. Whichever you choose to serve, you should take into account that there are always strings attached to every decision you make. You may pull the string towards you or you may toss it away from you but always bear in mind that at the other end of the string is something or someone waiting for something to happen..............

Paul McMann...you're the man!

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Jack of all trades that is Paul McMann. When you search his name, one might wonder who is this guy? His name will pop-up and is associated with different kinds of business. Paul McMann has made a name for himself from being a real state developer, a financial services sales representative, college professor, and a Collegiate Professional Basketball League (CPBL).
He had also published number of academic articles and one of them is entitled, "You May Need New Performance Measures When”. This article is co-authored by Joseph M. Orlando which appeared in the Journal of Strategic Performance Measurement.
Following his passion and interests for basketball while using his entrepreneurial skills, he has made waves in college basketball. As mentioned earlier, his love for basketball has paved the way for the CPBL. It is a league that has a double purpose in which it recruits high school basketball players to play ball as well as help these players make it through college. He envisions helping people by making their dreams come true and at the same time help the kids have a free education and a paycheck.
He has never stopped doing something for others which in turn has made him who he is right now. As featured on CNN, there is a nice excerpt from the Wall Street Journal in regards to the league.
“Nearly 65% of teens believe they can make it to the pro levels. The fact is only 1% of those make it to the college level of division I. In the CPBL, a 22 year old who is beginning to realize he has no career in hoops will still have the wherewithal to get himself a real degree.

The virtue of Paul McMann’s operation is that it gives a piece of the action to the players that help created it, along with an academic plan more suited to reality.”

Like most famous and successful people, Paul McMann’s stature did not have a smooth sailing ride when he was crossing the river. He has also created noise in the society before. His name reverberated, he was scandalize and became infamous with some anonymous defamatory statements. He filed a lawsuit against this certain John Doe but the Federal Court denied his ex parte application for leave to serve subpoenas to obtain the identity of the anonymous speaker who allegedly posted defamatory statements about him online.

While trying to scout for more information and some updates, I learned that his current endeavor is being a member of the Commonwealth Advisors Group, LLC. This move has recently made him an achievement by being named as an affiliate with Blue Coast Financial Group. This attainment gives him the opportunity to work with Blue Cost as a workers compensation and electricity deregulation financial advisor. It will be his task to analyze data to find a way to save the companies money being lost to policy errors and miscalculations. And as an electricity deregulation adviser, he is in charge in finding a solution to the companies skyrocketing energy costs.
Paul McMann now focuses his energies on real estate development in and around the MetroWest Massachusetts area. He still writes for various publications, credited as Paul McMann or Paul J. McMann.

Indeed, you can't put a good old man down. So to Paul McMann, rock on because "You're the man"!

The one that got away

I rarely read forwarded messages in my inbox. I usually trash them because they clogged up my space. I only browse the ones that are worth reading...and sometime 2 weeks ago something caught my eye. It was an essay entitled "the one that got away." It was an interesting essay and it talks about some things or people whom we let go and later realize that they are important to us....they are the ONE. I am sure that most of my friends can relate to this line "it is never good to hold on and live to the what-could-have-been" tag. Sometimes there are things or decisions that we have to make and live by it. We maybe immature and not yet ready when we do those mistakes but there's always a way to make up for it. We can only do so much and say "I am sorry for that one that got away"......
It is a reality of life and it is much easier to put every thoughts in writing than simply follow the golden rules of life. When we are in faced in that kind of situation we seem to hear only what our heart is saying. Nevertheless, it is always up to us to just leave a broken piece of us on the ground and travel the road with a hole and sore heart and then look back and say "the rest is history".......or we can pull back ourselves together and find a way to tell the next person that you'll meet "you're the one that almost got away".