I've never been so distraught in my life. Everything doesn't make sense. It's like my heart stopped beating and the world crashes on my feet. I know that at some point we have to make a decision. I made mine and for a moment a part of me says it is the right thing to do...the right words to say. I couldn't bear the pain and the hurt that I am going through especially when I realized that I couldn't have the real thing. I can't make demands and I can't expect because I knew it from the very start. The road has been tough and yet I felt happy when I join the ride.
It hurts me more when I know that in this kind of fairy tale there are no happily ever after endings. Time is not on our side. The odds are all against us. I just sometimes wonder if he really cared for me...really loved me. I guess this is my new beginning. I'm going to have look straight for that new road and should never look back. If he only knew.....all the things you are.
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