Please don't ask me

Just recently I saw Gretchen Baretto singing the classic song filled with so much emotions. I have heard so many versions but I still love the original - John Farham's version. Everytime I hear the song it just makes me stop and listen to it endlessly especially when I feel down...when I am loveless.

I guess the lyrics hit me hard this time. Every word, every line gives me a heavy heart and misty eyes. My world stops for a while and my heart aches and longs for the wonderful memories that keep on flooding in. How could something so wrong feel so right? It is a never endless battle with my conscience, a continuous painful experience that I hope is worth enduring.

There is never a time that goes by when I think of him. There are things that cannot be explained in just words. I can never bear to live the life with lies so I'd rather take the backstage and watch the curtains rise and fall before me.

I was reading one day a forwarded email which wasn't typical of me. I saw this two-liner inspirational quote with the background of a boy standing and looking over the horizon. It says "Don't be sad it was over. Be happy for it was once yours." I hope I will be able to live each day with that knowledge in my heart and content in my heart.

Just to share with everybody the song that I am carrying in my heart right now....here it goes :

Please don't ask me
what am i thinking
It's about you
And please don't ask me
I never can see you
What can i do
My first impulse is to
run to your side
My heart's not free,
and so i must hide
Please don't ask me
What i'm gonna say to you
I toss and turn
Can't sleep at night
It's worrying me, I go to bed
Turn out the light
But your face i see
It only hurts
The more i pretend
That we could ever
Be more than friends
Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you
You could easily make me happy
That I know
But I try my best to
never tell you so
I will sing to you my love songs
And pretend but I'll keep my
secrets right down
To the end
Please don't ask me why
I'm not talking
I just can't explain
And please don't ask me
Why I go walking out in the rain
I could not live the
lie it would take
To have you near would be a mistake
Please don't ask me
Why I'm still in love with you
No please don't ask me