Wide awake

It's almost 2am and I am still wide awake. Getting back to having those sleepless nights and how I wish I am sleepless in Seattle. Feels like a greyhound day for me. Same routine all over again. I wish there is a falling star between these dark clouds but all I see is a gloomy sky. I feel empty and most of the time I wish there is a black hole that would just suck this pathetic heavy emotion burning inside me. I am a walking dead ... lifeless. Running out of reasons to tie up that knot and i'm losing every grip I have. This maddening silence drives my sanity as i shed tears to the unknown tomorrow. Waiting...hoping...losing...