It isn't easy living two lives. You try to bring back the old times...what used to be while trying to deny the pure bliss that the other one is bringing you.

I was watching Enchanted with my eldest daughter during the vacation. There was a part where the witch sent the princess to Earth. She was shouting to the princess something like she is sending her to a world where happily-ever-after never happens. And then I suddenly remember Juno asking her dad if its possible for two people to stay happy together forever....Sometimes I wonder the same things and wish that there is a world or a place where happily-ever-after takes place.

Sometimes I end up thinking if I am part of his plans..his dreams...I feel a pang of attack of the green-eyed monster whenever I visualize his dreams empty of me. There's a twitch of sadness when my instinct tells me that something has changed...something funny about the change. Whenever I get this vacuum kind of feeling, thoughts ran to my mind.